Younger girls

Why cant they just leave me alone? Anywhere i look its younger girls and they are all crazy i just had one offer me her fucking range rover so i could drive and date her i mean really?? wtf why are they all crazy and why cant i find any older girls i like (or at least around my age) there are some of both that i like but none that i can really have at the moment for various reasons, like something happened or they are way to busy to date or other wise involved. All i want is to just find someone that i can be happy with is that to much to ask??? and i dont want a fucking peice of shit car to seal the deal MY FUCK CRAZY

and the other ones the fucking 8th grade girls (IM A SENIOR IN HIGH SCHOOL) why do they even bother, should i just stop smiling and being nice just flat. that all i do im just not a dick to them when they try to talk to me and they take that as im interested AGHHHHHHH it makes me so angry Im about to the point where im just gonna start being a dick to ALMOST everyone ans see if that gets me anywhere.... i just hate being alone so much... i always seem to be alone and even when im not i am again soon either by some stupid fault of mine or they turn out to be totally crazy like this one girl I started dating that threatened to hurt herself the second night after i asked her out.... like really>?>?>? >.<>

My current mood Frustrated and angry

Stupid feeling

I have a feeling that I Cannot Explain
I have a feeling that I Cannot Endure for long
I have a feeling that I Cannot Shake
I have a feeling that I Cannot be Happy with
I have a feeling that I Cannot Control
I have a feeling that I Cannot Hide
I have a feeling that I Cannot Ever go back
I have a feeling that I Cannot Answer
I have a feeling ...

A question

Why is it that music has the power to call forth so many emotions from so many different people? What is it about it that gives it that power exactly? The beat? The mood? The singers voice in a particular song?? Or is music simply just magic that way, because not even art can call forth the emotions that I get from listening to some songs. Music can call forth anger and hatred, love and passion, happiness and joy, and sadness and depression. Another peculiar thing about music is it has the strangest ability to combine these feelings even the ones that should be total opposites like love and depression...

love and Depression

Joy and Anger

This is how i feel right now :)



This is pretty happy for me, ive been thinking allot about who I am going to be after I graduate high school this year and what my life has become. Im tired of living this dream that I seem to be in now. Im ready to just be done with it all. All the fake friend ships and kissing teacher ass just to get ahead and keep my grades (which arnt that good anyways :P ) and this song kinda sums that all up, at least thats what i get out of it right now^^ enjoy

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The weird thing about myself is even though all of this I just have to share that there is always something else buried far in the back of my head, its still alive, the thoughts I mean but they are buried and only surface when I let my other guards down... (P.S. the singer is also amazing)

I said there would be music

This is one of my Favorite Songs

First post time :)

My blog will contain:

Music (LOTS)

my thoughts and ideas (me talking about whatever i feel like at the time and whats bugging me or making me happy :) )

links to fun web sites ^^

and probably me ranting about how much i hate certain people

also fun quotes

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